Slogging through…

So things have been a bit tough. I have had at least three days this week that felt like weeks unto themselves with the cravings, but I have managed to stay clean. It doesn’t help that Kabuki and I seem to have let the weekly outings and daily phone calls fall by the wayside.

I am trying to get out of the house anyway, though, so I won’t end up feeling crappy like I did last week. Last time we quit together we fell off the wagon together as well, and Kabuki noted—quite correctly—that we were too codependent about it. I could really use my wing-gal right now, but ultimately I have to be able to be in this for me.

So I have gone to the gym a few times, including today, and also have been trying to get out and walk around in the relatively nice weather we have been having. The exercise helps. Yesterday I went to the Danforth to pick up a book that I had ordered from Book City. I love that book! So gorgeous. It was such a nice day and I have been so good with the not smoking and feeling pretty happy about it that I thought we should both reward ourselves with dinner at Astoria. Yum!

Oh, and also? I drank wine! And didn’t sit there hating it because I couldn’t smoke. Rock on! To celebrate I picked up a couple more wines on the way home to bring back here for the weekend.

I have been working a lot, and I mean a lot, which helps and doesn’t help in that it keeps me busy but ups my stress level and back pain. But the money is nice. And I made an appointment with an accountant for my taxes, but haven’t gotten all of my stuff together yet. Um, I guess I had better do that. Thank heavens I am able to drink wine again!

With the weather getting nicer—and sunnier—I would like to get some of the toy and obsolete cameras Michka and I have together and go photo-adventuring. We have a Holga, an Oktomat, a pinhole (yet to be put together), a Brownie and a Voightlander. Oh, and an 8mm, for which of course they don’t make film anymore, but it’s pretty, and a Super 8, for which they do, although it is a bit pricey to process. The possibilities are simply delicious.